sad.

Just bathed. jus came back from work. got a new job, something like waiter but kinda upgrade abit, HAHA.
we're broke up at 2.24pm this afternoon. tears started rolling down from my cheeks automatically when i saw the texts. but, i've tried to be strong, so i stop.
she told me she's going to celebrate our 1st anniversary this wednesday, but things turn bad at the last minute. we're been tgt happily throughout the 29days, jus 1 more day, is our 1st month anniversary. I know i've been through so much for you, and i know you feel guilty as you didn't treasure me. i know im foolish. i know you didn't love me from the start till now, but i've nvr failed to keep trying and trying. what im telling myself is that i'll nvr give up. until the day i fall. but as you know, love that is been forced out, doesn't have happy ending. hahaa. i've been missing you all day long. as i went back to mart jus now, met yiwei, weisheng. i almost cry when i told yiwei we broke up. I told myself not to sad or rather cry because, what my heart was telling me is that i know one day we'll get tgt again and i know we'll have a happy ending. "(maybe dreaming)"
As im working just now, i suddenly think of my precious GIRL, and my eye turns red. i hope she'll not find another replacement as im scared she'll been cheated by feelings and get HURT! alright, TILL NOW. i just can't stop "(laughing)" as im writting.
I'll ALWAYS LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT. SOME DAY, YOU GOTTA COME BACK TO MY SIDE! <3<3 11.11PM 1th August 2010! LOVESS

I don't get it.

MY little girl.

we've been tgt happily from the starts to now, i shouldn't have been treated this way. i feel very sad for myself as i really put in much effort for you. i still rmb when we 1st day tgt, we walk around the field near 211, holding hands tgt chatting happily.. but now? i found out the reality, my heart just skip a beat. maybe im not the real nice guy you're holding on to. you told me im a guy that is very comfortable to be with. promised me whatever shits on your "sincerity" letter that you're wrote for me. was rubbish. every day you've been missing other guy. but aren't me. fuck? what the fucking fuck is this? didn't wanna celebrate 1st month anniversary with me, and yet? going out? dont feel like celebrating it with me? its okay, fuck it. have u ever tryed putting yourself into my shoe and think anot? example you love darren, he treated u liks this, how will u feel?


even how much i tryed to explain, you still dont get it in the end and will show attitude towards. i really dont know how to settle u down and make u understand. maybe you'll still young to understand, but as days pass by, i'll ensure you'll get it.
You're the one that i first look into your eyes, i begin to see butterflies. but out lips passionately didnt meet. You're the one that always on my mind, your face is all it can find and i think about you every day and know it'll work somehow, some way. some say im dumb and foolish, some say i should do as i wish. but all my heart could do is tell you that i'll ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

SCH.

boringg. feel free to talk to me ;D

Wo ai de ren.

Wo ai de ren, ke shi wo bu shi ta de ai ren, Wo hen shang xing.

i've got nothing but jus to accept the facts, you always say you love me/missed me, but down deep in ur heart, im still not the person that can replace him, i've tryed my very best to woo your heart, but i've failed. i know you love me, but your heart are greedy, she want both. Hais, there's nothing better much for me to do now, but jus to sad daily. I can't do anything now, i will respect your heart decision. i cant stop ur heart from loving a person. the only thing i can do is NOTHING because i've give in my 9/10 of hearts into you.. the only thing i want form you is your love xD <3 i can say, loving you was nvr regret :) if that's the point that u cant forget him, i think, i'll be leaving. becos being with me, everythings you've done with me you'll always think of him rather than me. i dont know how come your love from him is so effin strong. idk what can it be done to make u love me. i've treated u like my fking precious until me myself dont know how to elaborate it. hope my baby will wake up and think properly who's the one that really treat her good like a princess. becos it's worthless for her to do that. now there's a tresure with her. once the tresure is taken by other, it will nvr return. i dont want to lose u. i really love you, hope you'll give ureslf a chance to love me, there's nothing called you can't. its the matter that you want or dont want.

a lonely night with a fan beside.

i feel like deleting my blog there's really nothing to post so far, if its yes, i wont be bothering to post because is kind of very lame and useless stufff so. hmm, what should i suspose to do next? no idea. lol ):

hahaha

boring ah.. dont know what to post. ahahaha, hmmm, been so long that i didnt post. currently here to update normal things that what i've currently been doing :O.
slacking around, going town, meet my girlfriend! (:
Hope we'll last and need to study hard for my studies, need to pass my N's level if not GG.
Didn't really know what decision i've gotta make. but wish i'll make my decision asap :D
Bye :D xoxo >.< Loves >Jade low baby!< <3<3<3